As is the case with me, when I am “into” something, I tend to talk about it a lot. So, as I am now into “losing weight” mode…. you might want to stop reading my blog. Really, this is stuff no one cares about.
I have lost like 2 pounds and I feel great! It’s really strange to me the difference that I feel in my body after one week of eating right and exercising. I’m not sure which is the chicken and which is the egg here, but I feel that switch being flipped. Did the switch flip and then make me want to exercise? OR do I exercise and then the switch flips? Who knows.
But this is an explanation of the way that I feel. Because I think it is interesting, is all. (I know, you don’t. We’ve gone over that).
So, when I am drinking water, eating right, and exercising (only mildly. I’m not killing myself here) this is how I feel:
a) Not tired. I stay up at night past bedtime! I don’t drag myself places. I feel light on my feet in a way I can’t describe.
b) Thin. It’s odd. I feel not bloated, and the main place I feel “thin” is in my hands and my face. Is that odd? Do you think that’s a water retention issue? Like, the fact that I am now drinking water and eating actual nutrients, things are flowing better, thus my hands used to retain water and I didn’t even notice? My ring fits the same, so I don’t think this is an actual change… it’s a feeling. When I put my hand to my face, it feels like a different experience. I know, I’m a total weirdo. But it’s all true, so I may as well say it out loud.
c) Interested. This, I have to think, is related to the mood enhancing qualities of exercise. But, I really feel more interested in my surroundings. Like, the light is brighter in the room. Like, I want to find out what would happen to a butternut squash if you decided to boil it down, like you do candy, for hours. Would the sugars become stronger, making it taste like an actual candy sauce? I know, it sounds ridiculous (disclaimer, this is not an actual thought, I conjured it up right this very moment.) But it’s the kind of stuff I think about - a lot. Is this just a general feeling of energy? Maybe. I search for new homes online. I make plans. I connect with people. I envision cleaning my house.
You know, I read a dooce (yeah, I know) post once (yes, I read them more than once, but this is just in reference to one). She’s got depression issues, if you didn’t know that (and if you don’t know who she is - a blogger). Anyway, she was talking about how she had adjusted her meds one time, and after a week or so, called her husband to say “Are you kidding me!? Is this seriously what you normal people feel like every day?” She was just so amazed in the difference, she couldn’t believe it. I kinda feel like that. It’s much more subtle than that, but kindof obvious to me for the fact that I’ve been real introspective lately about my thoughts/feelings as well as my physical appearance. So when something changes, it’s like “SOMETHING CHANGED! BY GOD, I’M NOT ACTUALLY BEING HELD IN PLACE BY ANY STRANGE FORCE. I CAN MOVE, AND CHANGE. WHO KNEW?”
And then… maybe it’s all just psychosomatic. I’d put my money on this one, knowing my little brain and parasympathetic nervous system.
If only I could come up with a psychosomatic cure for itchiness, life would really be grand.
